Its my everlasting wishful thinking!!! And more so from the moment I saw my mother this saturday after an year in person. She is the most dynamic and energized person I have ever seen. yes, I know all children think of their mothers that way. I have seen my mom wake up at 4 and work tirelessly till the night, both at home and office and still look fresh every moment. I havent really seen her rest or complain about hardwork ever. I did appreciate it all the time, but it has grown leaps and bounds now that I am going to be a mother too. I really dont think I can do so much as her, ever. By just seeing a frowning face, she would forget her all day tiredness and make a dish that I love so much, just to make me feel better. I still see the person with the same attitude, but I can also see that she is making an effort to be active, yet she is tired and is trying to hide it.
It hurts! I realise that its not because she cant do things as she used to or that I am dependant on her as I was. I can do all the work and would just like her to rest, but I just dont want her to get older. Its the same for everyone. You just love them so much and you are terribly scared to face reality of ageing. If anyone asks me what I wish if I saw God now, I would just ask Him that I want her young forever! Wouldnt that be the most wonderful thing to happen !!!
Yet, I know its not possible! But, on the insight, it has made me realise how precious every single moment of life is. The moments you spend with family, friends and people who matter to you, are too valuable to ignore. Sometimes when you stay close and look at them everyday, you dont really notice the minute or sometimes even bigger changes in them. I wonder if I really saw any changes for the past so many years I was with her than this just one year I stayed far away. My sincere words for people who are not so far away from their parents, please do visit them regularly. You would really know how happy you feel, but if you ask people who are far away, you would realise what a blessing it is!!!!
