Day I fell in love with my little angel

I had always loved kids! But somehow never got a chance to be around small babies or kids until my niece came along. She was the first baby I had seen grow up and that time I even felt that I cannot love my own child that much. I was wrong! I am in love with my baby more than everything in this world even before I can see her.

This particular day was when we went in for 20th week Morphology scan! Till then, I was excited that we are going to have a baby, but often I wondered why I didnt feel so connected to my child. I read mommy articles and everyone around me asked me to do a lot of things keeping the baby in mind, but I was just relaxing and going ahead with my life as if there was no big change. Trust me, I was often guilty and thought the emotional me had changed and I wouldnt love my baby so much, what kind of mother would I be, etc, etc.

Both me and my husband wanted to know if it was a boy or a girl and were very eager for this scan day to come. When we went for the scan, we told him that we wanted to know the gender of the baby and the technician said he would eventually come to that as part of the procedure. Initially when he started measuring the size of head, neck, etc, I was restless. Cudnt wait to know !! But later when he was trying to move the baby to see that little hand that he/she wasnt showing, it struck me that there were more important things than what I wanted to know, if he/she was healthy!!! The actual purpose of the scan, to know if everything was alright with the baby!!! I still get scared when I think of that moment and realise how stupid I had been for so long. The baby eventually turned and showed her hand and we were all happy. Figured out what we will having our little angel(though the technician warned us not to fill in with pink stuff) and came home.

Couple of days later, we got the scan sheets and I was looking at it, though I didnt understand much of their measurement language. All on a sudden I saw two little feet together. It was such a mesmerizing moment in my life and I know it changed everything in me. I dont remember how long I was holding to the sheet till my husband saw me crying and asked me why. He couldnt understand why I was crying after knowing that our baby was healthy. Actually I didnt know why I was crying until I realised that I was overcome with love for my child. I had not lost my cool till that moment and I knew that my life would never be the same. I was so deep in love with my angel and I wanted to see that little feet and hold it so badly.

I am yet to see my dearest maya, got to wait for almost 8 weeks for her, but now I have the confidence of being a mother than I had before:)