What I would like to do

For myself - Be positive. For some time now, I have started experiencing ‘What we think, we become’. The more good things I think, the more happier I am. I read quotes, post it on the fridge, remind myself every other day. But sometimes, toxic thoughts do appear in my mind. Overpowering me and puts me down. It is when I want to understand that its just a phase and I need to rise above that again - Focus and integrity. Whilst I know I am doing my best at home, I don’t think I am doing the same at work. I want to change that. I want to be accountable for what I do and I want to give my best For my kids Oh… that’s going to be a very long list. Out of which the first and major one would be 1. To talk – I want to talk to them as much as I can – when they are in this young phase where they want to hear from me. Soon they will grow out of it. 2. To play with them – that’s one of the major things I haven’t been good at. Maya loves loves and loves the one or two times I have played snake and ladder with her. Karthi wants me to play tickling games. I really should play with them more. I didn’t have a childhood full of play, was pretty serious in our household. I now have the life where I can play and just be happy. So that’s onething I seriously want to incorporate in our lives 3. To cook – Onething I really love is having the kids around all the time. Want to cook lots of different dishes for them, with them. 4. To love love and love them unconditionally – Pretty much every mom does that. But I have found that loving them when they are darlings is so easy, but loving them when they are mischievous is so damn hard. I cannot believe the tone of my voice sometimes and I end up feeling extremely guilty afterwards.