Update as of today – 11th April 2019

I was thinking what was there to write a blog about in my life right now, I think it will be just general things, which sounds so mundane right now, but will be a valuable memory for later. And some recent incidents have shown me my true companions, Books and writing. Will stick to that because they cannot hurt me ever. And I can keep writing in the break time when I actually go to the ‘Idle brain in the devil workshop’ mode. I am borderline stalking on Twitter, FB, Whatsapp and truly need a social media break. They do more bad than good. Karthik started school this year 2019 – a term has already completed. Was tough first two weeks, he showed tremendous enthusiasm in joining big school, but I think the new environment, toilets being far away, caused him a bit of anxiety. Had accidents 4 days and then I introduced sticker charts for somethings – not wetting his pants, finishing his lunch and I think it worked. Whether that worked or he got used to that system, its good to see him confident and happy. But somewhere during the end of the term, he wanted to go back to Kindy. When I asked him why, he said he could paint a lot there and do whatever he wanted. I guess the class structure and limited time to do his favourite things took a toll on him. All on a sudden he came and asked me for Tuckshop money one day. Maya didn’t have it until year 2. I was surprised, but I saw couple of kids with money already, so I gave him a dollar. The first time I gave him, I asked maya to take him to the tuckshop. The next time he says, he wants to go by himself or his friend Diya. He kept repeating, Diya can take me, Diya can take me and I let it go Another day, he had forgotten to go to the tuckshop and then lost it in Speech and drama after hours class. When I went to pick him up after that, he was in tears when he remembered that some boy took the money. The whole evening, whenever he remembered that, he was in tears. It was just a simple incident, but it hurts you so much that you cannot do anything for the hurt caused in your child. Maya is in year 4. Actually I think so far her best year. She isn’t doing exceptionally well, she is just a happy average kid. It took a very long time for me to come to terms with that. But she has got the best teacher she loves and her best friend and so far, she is going well. She has started telling when her assessments are, I am super glad she atleast has gotten that responsible. From wishing to be the gold star student, I have made peace to the playful child she is – that she atleast remembers to tell me when there is an assessment. More than her growth, it is how I have grown as a mom that surprises me.