My son – my Karthik

Though I started writing this blog for my daughter, as all new mom’s your first child is your world and you cannot really think beyond anything other than the first one, I want to add about my son here. Not really maintaining a Journal, but I really need to make this more often than what I have been doing for the past few years. My son is a happy, healthy, beautiful child who is 8 months now. My pregnancy, his delivery, my recovery from C-section all seems so far now, but it was quite a journey and he truly is a miracle. I had a miscarriage before I got pregnant with my son, so was super paranoid from the time I found out that I was pregnant. I hadn’t slept a day and thought I will get better after the 12th week scan because the chances of miscarriage are minimal in the second trimester. Then came the 12th week scan scare. They said there is a 1:151 chance that he could have some disability and rated mine as a high risk pregnancy. This result came exactly on the same day I was travelling to India for a 5 week trip. Needless to say, this trip was the most torturous and scary. Initially I had no doubt that nothing wrong will happen to my child, but I started getting scared that in the event of something being wrong in the tests done, I had to terminate. Went through CVS procedure in Chennai, numerous scans and had to wait for 2 weeks to know the initial results, whether the baby has down syndrome or not. Those two weeks were sleepless, crying days within myself. Finally when the results came, and it said normal, I had a huge cry of relief hugging my mom. In the recent days, I have become a bit formal with my mother and that was a moment I let myself down in need of support and care. Came back and had to again have a series of tests because of my previous pre-eclampsia episode with maya and the high risk pregnancy. Had to have scans every two weeks and I started looking forward to it because I could see the baby. For the 20th week scan, I went a bit confused cuz that was the scan that would say if the baby had any heart troubles and also the gender. For maya, I was very interested to know. But for this one, I was somehow convinced that it was another girl for me. I told my husband that if it’s a boy, it really means Lord Murugan has come to me and will name him Karthik. I just said it in a fluke, but didn’t really think of it very much. I went for the scan with a friend and I was more interested when they scanned the heart and other important stuff. And without any heads up, there I saw….it was a boy  Both me and my friend were in tears and I knew he was going to be perfectly fine. Over the next few week scans, the baby was slightly larger for his weeks, and I internally knew that I might have gestational diabetes. Was an avid follower of all the babycenter, mom blogs and I knew that there wasn’t much explanation other than that. My 28th week blood tests were fine, so the doctors didn’t ask me to take a test again. I somehow felt I had it, but continued my regular diet though I knew it was good to cut down on sugar and rice. Maya was a small baby, so I thought though I might suffer with c-section cuz of a large baby, I just wanted the baby to be fine and big..I know its stupid, but pregnancy hormones don’t make you think straight. 39 weeks and was getting restless…The baby was big making it hard for me to do anything…went to a part with family to keep my daughter busy and there I had something…never realized it was contractions..Came back home and was making dosa and realized it started. Rushed to the hospital, by the time I was having 2 min contractions. I wanted to have epidural, but unfortunately some alarm went off in the hospital and they left me unattended for an hour. Finally had epidural, a day later, they said the baby was big and I was no way going to have a normal delivery, he came out beautifully in an emergency C-section. I was a bit disappointed because he was a spitting image of Uday, but his curly beautiful hair, his chubby cheeks…oh…everything about his was so perfect… We had a few bad times after that…I had an infection, flu, etc.e tc…and some emergency trips to hospital, but he won our hearts with his smile, his everything…He started sleeping through the night since he was 9 weeks and so far, hasn’t really troubled me much unless he is really sick. Maya was initially a bit weird about him, ignored him and used to cry a lot. Now that he laughs and runs behind her in his walker, she is in love with him, like us, totally!!! Lots happening, maya is starting school, me in a new home, new job..etc..But I hope I can write more in the future instead of reading news websites all the time when I am free…My kids might or I should say, will think I am stupid when I show them the blog..but hopefully will appreciate when they become older!!!