Maya starting school….

For a while now, I have been thinking about starting Maya in Child care atleast two days a week. Initially I was wondering if I should wait until she is three. But she seems so bored at home and I really think it will be a good exposure for her to be with other kids of her age. Was looking at various play schools and Montessori and I am still confused. I am generally a kind of a person who likes everything or doesn’t like anything at all. In this case, it’s the former. I like three schools and whether or not, there is a vacancy there, in my mind, I am confused to choose between those three. I remember once a friend said (when I wasn’t married yet), she wanted to see how a cool mom I would be. But I guess cool and mom doesn’t go well together, atleast when they are little and you have to decide everything for them. I am jittery about sending her to school, with strangers, I am super worried about her diet, scared to think if other kids will harm her, with she being a bit smaller than other kids of her age. So many thoughts running in my mind and it leaves me sleepless some nights. I keep thinking where exactly did I lose the cool part about me. Guess it starts when you start carrying your child. You start worrying about you eating healthy for your childs sake, etc. etc and the list goes on. And I am very sure it will continue as long as I live. But the beautiful part is, everything is worth it when your little girl wraps her arms around your neck and says she loves you. Today morning, in her sleep, my baby woke up and she took my hand and kept it near her face and went back to sleep. And I clearly remember, apart from being the sleepy head I am, I couldn’t control my tears. She gets a sense of security just by holding my hand and I know any hardship I go through for her, is so worth it. She is truly a miracle in my life and I hope she knows what she has brought into my life.